Is it worth put the work in.

Longing and pondering as space and time meld and then you try to hold it still and impose your will to no avail. Stuck in a loop feeling dumber then fruit not knowing what to do to boot.

Analyzing the situations possibly using masturbation to get you to relax. I know talking about the fact that you fap or sap is mostly tmi. It knowing you can take yourself to paradise that makes some upset. Why is it just you who gets to experience your essence do you really want no one else’s presence? 

Get you mind out the gutter redirect that ache. Take that desire and make the world quake. Make your hands stroke the pulse of the world and get it to release the blessings you have built up a sweat for.