I m stuck

If I could talk to you I'd tell you about my dreams of me and you.

 Just chilling at home like homies do 

but with the freedom to change up the mood

 playful, joyful it's always good. 

Loving that you see past all the goods

 and just let me feel safe 

as you should 

makes me wanna open up

 though I fear being misunderstood.

I try to show you in every touch that I love you so much. 

I don't even get why with you I'm so shy

 but

 I want to show you that your right I can be that guy.

 I can be the one who makes sure you never cry. 

I can make sure you never have to ask why.

  I just have to figure out why

 I lie 

to me 

about how this connection can never be and that I want you far far far from me. 

Like a drug addicts next hit your energy gives me a fix I can't explain. 

When I step from you my heart sings a refrain

 that you love me I love you and it's awesome  

and then I go and disappear but stay near like a possum. 

Girl it's just my misfortune to keep on hoping you'll wait for me. 

I just have a few more oats to sow a few more wild seeds to plant 

but you are right we are meant to be it's just right now....I can't. 

Not that I don't or I won't but I can't I'm messed up in alot of ways let me spare you the rant. 

I want you isn't that enough? 

Your my hope, my love and good luck

 it's never ever gonna just be about the next fuck. 

Look I'm working on it I swear 

I want my love for you to be something all can't help but be aware. 

I love you it's as simple as that I'm not going nowhere bebe we both stuck.