Shut Up!

 Shut Up!!

Let me speak when I'm ready.

 I planned it out. I am working towards my goal.

You just won't stop talking/posting  and it's interfering.

You are just to inquisitive and to smart for your own good. 

I am hurting and making decisions with no strategy except stack and pray you will be there when I can look up again. 

I know you are confused on what is happening in our connection but I can't risk you revealing it all before it's time.

As proud of you as I am I wish you would tone it down until I can step forward and protect you a tad  but I can't ask you to dim your light noone not even the love of your life has the right to do that. 

Every night I look at the moon and I hope that sometime throughout the night you're dreaming of me if not out right thinking about me. 

I miss you and I just need some more time. Please be more patient your lack of faith makes it harder to keep fighting for us. 

Tell me you want this tell me you will wait no matter what because I feel like there is going to be a matter that i need you not...to what.